Child Loss Faith Grief

Everything is going to be OK

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Written by Missy Hillmer

Do you believe in coincidence?  Or, perhaps, “God moments?” A lot of people think things happen as a coincidence, but me – I believe in God placing things in my path at just the right time. I have always believed in God moments, but I haven’t always been strongly connected to them.

You know how it is.  Life gets in the way; you are busy; you’re rushing through your day. You don’t listen or act on those moments. And then things change. Dramatically! In the last eighteen months my life has changed tremendously! My family of five abruptly became a family of four. A car accident stole my son, Tyler’s life only three days after his 15th birthday. Looking back, that day was filled with “God moments.” Of course, I didn’t realize it then. I didn’t realize it until I looked back weeks even months after the accident. 

The details of what would have been a totally normal day are graphic images that play over and over in my mind.  I took fall sports pictures, dropped my daughter(Gracie) off at a birthday party, downloaded the pictures, did a bank deposit, got Gracie from the party, hurried home to see my parents who were down for a busy weekend including celebrating Tyler’s 15th birthday. We are all busy, but I don’t remember intentionally pushing to get so much done before.

Thinking back, why was Tyler’s birthday and Gracie’s activities all on the same weekend? Why did Tyler want to go hang out with his friends when he would have typically stayed home to see his grandparents? Coincidence?  No, I firmly believe it was a “God moment.” Actually God’s plan – His plan for me, for our family, for Tyler and for everyone Tyler touched.

When Tyler left that night he was supposed to be home in 30 minutes. He didn’t make it home on time. Why did my husband, Bill get an uneasy gut feeling something terrible was wrong? I usually get them. Why? Because God knew if Bill was uneasy he would take action. Bill went looking for Tyler. God’s plan.

When I got the call from Bill that there was an accident one mile from our house, logic tells you that shear panic should have set in. But it didn’t.  I had focus; I was calm and had unbreakable strength to do the job God had placed in my hands.

Then there was Gracie, asleep. I couldn’t leave her alone. But my parents were there.  God’s plan.

And yet another amazing thing happened as I sat by Tyler. I had this feeling that someone was lifting me up and urging me to move to the middle of the road. I stood alone, looked up at the full moon, closed my eyes, and felt the gentle breeze on my face. In that moment I heard these calming words…“Everything is going to be OK and you are going to get through this.”

I have never felt more peaceful than that exact moment.  I firmly believe it was Tyler telling me these words. He was comforting me! Tyler telling me he understood God’s plan. He always had a way of calming me. Coincidence or “God moment?”

I have no doubt, this is all part of God’s master plan. These “God moments” continue to this day. Want to hear more? Comment and I will continue my story. But more importantly…listen for your “God moments.”

About the author

Missy Hillmer

My name is Missy Hillmer. I’m married, live in a small town named Palmer, NE and have 3 children. Jake is our oldest who is 19 years old and Gracie is 11 who lives here with us. Tyler which was 15 years on August 20, 2013 is now in Heaven. He was killed in a car accident just 3 short days after his 15th birthday.

I am very honest, very real sometimes to the point of not being fun, I guess that’s because I’m a black and white kind of girl. I like to look at the positive in every situation. I really believe there are two ways to look at things. Look for the bad or the good. The “bad” does me no justice and can spiral out of control in a heartbeat. The “good” however gives me hope and it connects with my belief that God is with me through everything.

I believe my faith has gotten me through life and especially since my son’s accident. I pray a lot more, watch for the signs that God gives me, listen to my inner gut feeling, as my husband calls it and really focus on living a simple life. Family means everything to me, I love to laugh and think it’s the best medicine for any problem. Music soothes my sole and being outside in the sun brings me great joy!

I have learned that many times you cannot control the storm in your life but, you can learn to dance in the rain. I really mean it when I say DANCE in the RAIN! The summer before Tyler’s accident, Tyler, Gracie & I danced in the rain. This memory I will never forget!

Since Tyler’s accident I am passionate about telling my story with the hope that it will help or inspire at least one person.

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