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Finding Beauty Amidst the Struggles of Motherhood

Finding Beauty Amidst the Struggles of Motherhood www.herviewfromhome.com

“…We can wake up ready to face the glorious day that God has set for us –  ready to use the day to give glory to our Father…THAT is what makes our alarm beautiful.”

I wrote this exact quote a little less than two years ago at the start of my blog A Beautiful Alarm.  I wrote it with true conviction.  I wrote it to encourage and inspire other women like myself.  And I prayed that that is exactly what it did.

I have not written a post in that blog for 9 months now.  There are many reasons for this, one of them having to do with the busyness that a newborn brings with a 2-year-old running around. (How do so many of you do it and do it so well!?)  But the truth is, the main reason I stopped myself from writing another post in my blog was that the majority of my days were no longer feeling quite so beautiful.  How could I possibly aim to encourage and inspire others to live their days this way when I myself could not even do so?

The overwhelming feeling that it can be with a newborn and a toddler has, at times, felt too much for me to handle.  I have felt as though I have been drowning more days than not.  Drowning in what feels like an incapability to continue.  Drowning in simple tasks of dishes and laundry.  Being engulfed in the cries and whines from my two little ones. 

I was not waking up ready to use the day to give glory to God or in much joy at all.  I was waking up most days with a feeling of exhaustion, anxiety, and dread.  I was waking up already overwhelmed with my day ahead of me.

This past year has been my toughest yet.  From adjusting to two under the age of two, to feeding and growth struggles with my youngest, to numerous hospital trips, to simply the every day life of being a mom – the truth is, I have struggled.  And I continue to struggle.  Yet through that struggle I am learning and growing more than I have ever before.  Isn’t this frequently the case?  God so often uses our hardest times to grow us closer to Him, making us humble in spirit and rich with His love. 

While my days have been difficult I have learned that they can still be beautiful.  In fact they are so much more filled with God’s beauty.  For through our struggle as Moms, through our toughest days, He is there carrying us through, loving us, and showing His mercy upon us. Can it get any more beautiful than that?! 

My hope with my blog was ‘to help others live a life of intention and purpose, with an attitude of joy and thankfulness’ in every day living.  I am back to that desire.  I am back to filling my own life with this and to working on this in a community of women with the same desire. My struggles have not stopped.  My littlest still is not growing well, my days are still filled with tantrums and frustrations, my anxieties continue, and I hardly have any of this motherhood stuff figured out.  The difference is that I am choosing to bring my focus back on the One who makes all things beautiful.  For though our days may not always be beautiful, God’s beauty will always overcome that.

About the author

Esther Vandersluis

Esther is a Canadian writing from Hamilton, Ontario. She is a stay-at-home to two incredibly sweet little girls, a wife to a very hard working husband, a writer and crafter in her ‘spare’ time, and a teacher at heart.

Most of all, she is a follower of Christ and is working on living in His joy through every task of motherhood. You can find her at http://abeautifulalarm.blogspot.ca/ where she writes about waking up each day with an attitude of joy and thankfulness while living a life of intention and purpose for Christ.

  • Abbey Phipps

    Oh how much more beautiful the world becomes when we refocus our eyes on Christ! This is truly beautiful! You’re doing so good, mama!

  • Bethany Shields

    Right there with you! Mine are 3 and 1 now and it’s getting easier (or at least different). Motherhood truly is sanctifying. Thanks for these words and for your honesty! I can definitely relate. You are so not alone in feeling this way!!

    • Thanks Bethany! So great to be able to relate to other moms and lift each other up in community 🙂

  • Suzanne Hines

    I love this and can so relate to everything that you said! I have often compared this season of littles to “drowning”. As my kids start sleeping through the night and becoming more independent, I joyfully declare that I’m “treading water!” Yay! Haha. Maybe one day we will get to the point where we are laying on the beach? Haha! Still, there is beauty in everyday moments, and it might take a conscience effort to see it…it is there and it is worth finding!

    • Thank you, Suzanne! Haha I can only dream of the days of sleeping through the night… ahh…one day I hope!? And yes, so worth it to find the beauty in the here and now!!