Faith Grief

God Moments

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Written by Missy Hillmer

2 years, 1 month, 12 days since God presented himself in my life Loud & Clear! It will actually be longer when you get this in your hands to read or should I say on your computer. It’s been that long since God took my son, Tyler home to Heaven. I know there will be people who read this and say these things are just coincidences. As for me, those things are what I call God Moments.

One of my God Moments happened two days after Tyler’s accident. A friend’s son who had just moved back to the area in May gave us a note. He said the night of the accident he could not sleep around 3:00 am. So he wrote a note not knowing why. The note he wrote was the EXACT answer to my biggest question. Was Tyler scared? There was no doubt in my mind that the note was sent from God. Assuring me that Tyler was not scared and that God was with him. Definitely A God Moment.

Or what about the songs Tyler left us? We were going through his play list and noticed four songs that he had listened to well over 300 times each.  “Home” by Phillip Phillips, “I’m Yours” by Justin Mraz, “Three Little Birds” by Bob Marley and “Spirit In The Sky” by Normal Greenbaum. It was as if he knew we would look. Unfortunately, our Pastor was unsure that the songs were appropriate at a Christian service. But, after listening to the words there was no doubt in my mind or his that Tyler was leaving all of us a message. God was preparing him for this day where he really knew it or not, that he was not scared, he reminded us everything was going to be OK, that it was his time and he was ready.

WOW!! Coincidence, absolutely not! God Moment.

Then there were the dragonflies and locust at the grave the day of the funeral. Tyler liked dragonflies and he loved listening to the locust sing. When the kids were little we would sit on the deck and I would say shhh, just listen. We would sit there at sunset enjoying the view and hearing locust, crickets and bullfrogs or whatever animal decided to join in. It’s pretty normal to see and hear them in August. But the day of the funeral as we got out of the cars and stood by the grave, there were huge swarms of large dragonflies. Plus, wouldn’t you know it, the locust were singing so loud that many people commented on them. It was as if God wanted to remind us Tyler was right there with us.

Another amazing God Moment.

I can’t forget thinking how hot it was waiting for the balloons to get passed out for the release and thinking there is no wind. Then out of nowhere a breeze came up just as they told us to release the balloons. It was God’s timing and yet another God Moment.

I look back, 2 years, 1 month, and 16 days now. I am reminded of a very sad time. But, I also reflect on what has happened during this time as a celebration of growth. It’s a growth in my faith, my belief in God, and growth of me understanding my plan. Hoping people see this much more than a freak thing, but a carefully planned journey God has mapped out for each of us. It’s looking past the coincidence, to see the God Moments.

 

About the author

Missy Hillmer

My name is Missy Hillmer. I’m married, live in a small town named Palmer, NE and have 3 children. Jake is our oldest who is 19 years old and Gracie is 11 who lives here with us. Tyler which was 15 years on August 20, 2013 is now in Heaven. He was killed in a car accident just 3 short days after his 15th birthday.

I am very honest, very real sometimes to the point of not being fun, I guess that’s because I’m a black and white kind of girl. I like to look at the positive in every situation. I really believe there are two ways to look at things. Look for the bad or the good. The “bad” does me no justice and can spiral out of control in a heartbeat. The “good” however gives me hope and it connects with my belief that God is with me through everything.

I believe my faith has gotten me through life and especially since my son’s accident. I pray a lot more, watch for the signs that God gives me, listen to my inner gut feeling, as my husband calls it and really focus on living a simple life. Family means everything to me, I love to laugh and think it’s the best medicine for any problem. Music soothes my sole and being outside in the sun brings me great joy!

I have learned that many times you cannot control the storm in your life but, you can learn to dance in the rain. I really mean it when I say DANCE in the RAIN! The summer before Tyler’s accident, Tyler, Gracie & I danced in the rain. This memory I will never forget!

Since Tyler’s accident I am passionate about telling my story with the hope that it will help or inspire at least one person.