Faith Inspiration

His Truth

His Truth www.herviewfromhome.com
Written by Gloryanna Boge

Coffee is gurgling from the corner of my kitchen. I need this cup this morning. Time has slipped through my grasp and I need to stop and breathe today. An overwhelming sigh escapes me. Coffee, Bible and journal in hand, I sit at my kitchen table that has seen many of my tears and fears on numerous ragged, dark early mornings.

As I open my journal, I am guilted by the gap in the dates marked on the top of the pages. Almost two months since the last time I made an effort to seek out God for his guidance. Guidance on my journey as a new mother, a new friend, a loving wife and writer. I found something I was drawn to, led by the Spirit and began a spiraled crawl down my own path. Why is it when God gives me an opportunity to serve him, I find the need to take the opportunity and make it my own? I grab it, dress it up in an outfit I picked out, show it off on the runway of my life and call it my own work? My own doing. By the time I’ve come to the end of myself, I am enveloped by a sickness. God shows me the way to a bountiful path and I stuff my face.

It’s the sickness that usually brings us back.

I fumble with an overwhelming sense of insecurity. What if I made the wrong decision? What if I’m not supposed to be doing this with my life? As I search down the wrong turn I’ve taken, I see others in the distance who appear to be on the same journey as me. They look like they’ve made some similar decisions as me. All I see are their successes.

I start falling. Falling into jealousy. Anger. Fear. A dark pit I can’t see out of. I feel like I’ve reached the bottom and I can’t find my way out. I get kicked around by my emotions. They slither around me, rearing their fangs, ready to bite at my weakest moments.

These are the moments when we’ve come to the end of ourselves that we feel God’s hand holding us. We realize we aren’t in the bottom of a self-destructive pit. We are being held. Held by the One who never let go. God’s love is unconditional and will always be cupping us when we fall. It’s our pride that masks the floor from us. We put ourselves in our own dark places only to find God re-lighting the path for us every time we take a detour. His Word says in Isaiah 41:13 that He is the the Lord our God who takes hold of our hand and says “Do not fear; I will help you.”

I think of the verses we’re taught as children. Verses that become cliches. They get tossed around as platitudes, losing their power in our lives. Until we need His power to rejuvenate us. Until we hear Him whisper the truth to open our eyes and see that He is with us.

I hear him whisper His truth in my dark kitchen that morning.

“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord our God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6

I don’t sit at my kitchen table to feel like I’ve earned points with the man upstairs. I don’t journal about my journey to feel good about myself. I sit down for coffee with the Creator of the universe. I write to clear away the weeds I’ve sown so I can see the beauty He has always had for me. The beauty of His Word. The beauty of seeing others with His eyes. The beauty of seeing myself with His eyes.

About the author

Gloryanna Boge

Gloryanna is a teacher turned SAHM whose identity is found in her relationship with Christ. She is married to her high school sweetheart who insists that dirty clothes can be left on the floor. Gloryanna writes to encourage others in their walk with Christ, no matter what season you're going through. If you want to be encouraged, you can follow her writing at http://onlyaseason.com/. You can also catch snippets of her faith and scribbles on Twitter - https://twitter.com/onlyaseason Facebook - https://www.facebook.com/onlyaseason/and Bloglovin' - https://www.bloglovin.com/blogs/only-a-season-14719409

  • Meighan

    How true is the saying that comparison is the thief of joy! Especially as a mother, when we begin looking at those on the path beside us we can easily question all that God has led us to be. Thank you for the encouragement to continue seeking Him. And in the dark early morning?! When sweet sleep is so precious? 🙂 I’m sure it’ll be well worth it if I tried.

    • http://www.onlyaseason.com Gloryanna @onlyaseason

      Yes! Comparison IS the thief of joy! It’s worth it whenever it happens!! 😉

  • Julie

    Thank you for sharing your heart. So true. When our eyes are on ourselves or others, we stumble. But when our eyes are on Jesus, He lifts us up!

    • http://www.onlyaseason.com Gloryanna @onlyaseason

      Thanks Julie 🙂 It’s so comforting knowing that He is always there, holding me and lifting me up.

  • Harmony Strong Vuycankiat

    Beautiful! I feel like I could’ve written the same words because of the season I’m in right now. My fave part is the last paragraph where you refer to writing as a way to clear away the weeds so you can see the beauty God has for you. So true it seems. Thanks for your transparent words!

    • http://www.onlyaseason.com Gloryanna @onlyaseason

      Thanks, Harmony! I love always knowing and having that feeling that every day is new and the weeds are gone.

  • Maple Alps

    Love this. Spending time with God is so important. Thank you for sharing this – very encouraging!

    • http://www.onlyaseason.com Gloryanna @onlyaseason

      Our relationship with God is the rock for it all! I’m glad this was encouraging to you!!

  • Tiffany Austin

    Be strong and courageous is one of my favorite quotes – especially for kids!

    • http://www.onlyaseason.com Gloryanna @onlyaseason

      My son is 10 months old and yes, I love knowing that he’ll learn his strength and courage comes from the Lord!

  • Mommy Muddling

    Yes…this is where we find Him. At the ends of ourselves. It is truly such a comfort to know we aren’t alone in these thoughts and feelings and that God is always there, reminding us not to be afraid and that our real value comes from Him!

    • http://www.onlyaseason.com Gloryanna @onlyaseason

      And it’s so easy to forget where our real value comes from! At least for me!

  • Christina Graham

    Love this post! So powerful!

    • http://www.onlyaseason.com Gloryanna @onlyaseason

      Thanks Christina!

  • http://www.alwaysanewdayblog.com/ Kim Reed

    So beautifully written – I needed to read this today. I am seeking Him in the midst of trying times. Thank you!

    • http://www.onlyaseason.com Gloryanna @onlyaseason

      It always seems the trying times bring us back to Him when we are struggling with something, doesn’t it? I’m glad this met you where you’re at!

  • Tomi R

    It’s so important to spend time with God.
    It’s almost equally important to have coffee. 😉
    Great post!

    • http://www.onlyaseason.com Gloryanna @onlyaseason

      Yes Tomi! Thanks for the encouragement! And so is the creamer that goes in my coffee 🙂

  • sosomom

    I cannot bring myself to get up early. I read about how fulfilling it is a lot but I don’t think it is for me. I am a night owl that needs a lot of sleep.

    • http://www.onlyaseason.com Gloryanna @onlyaseason

      My husband is the same way!!! When I was a teacher, I was all over the map when I would “sit” to read my Bible and pray. I say go with whatever seems to work for you!

  • Kayla Nelson

    Oh sweet sister how my heart resonates with these times. My early days of motherhood – you just wrote them word for word. So many days of struggling and feeling so alone. Being able to voice it in this way is so healthy and it brings truth into your heartache. <3 Keep pushing on and pursuing the truth, mama! You're doing great! 🙂

    • http://www.onlyaseason.com Gloryanna @onlyaseason

      Thanks Kayla 🙂 “truth into your heartache” is a great way to put it.

  • Annie McGarr

    I often wonder if I’m doing what God wants, especially when I don’t see results I want! But then when I ask myself and pray “would I be happy doing anything else” I let God work in me to answer honestly!

    • http://www.onlyaseason.com Gloryanna @onlyaseason

      That’s a great point, Annie! I am always going back to the heart of what I’m doing and that is knowing that I’m following God’s lead. Sometimes, that has to be enough even if I don’t see the results I want to see!

  • anj

    I can certainly identify with many of the feelings you’ve shared, Gloryanna. And I believe that’s what makes writing about His truth and our ongoing journey to discover (and receive!) it such a beautiful expression. We connect with each other in our common human struggles and triumphs, and perhaps deeper still, we learn from each other by glimpsing different the perspectives that flow out of the unique way He made each of us. You encouraged me today… thank you!

    • http://www.onlyaseason.com Gloryanna @onlyaseason

      Thanks Anj 🙂

  • Starr Weathersbee Schrenker

    This is so vulnerable and honestly written. Beautiful! Thank you for posting something so inspiring.

  • http://www.thehomelovingwife.com The Home Loving Wife

    @onlyaseason:disqus I heart you SO stinkin’ much. This piece is beyond amazing, truly – it touched my heart. You are a beautiful soul and are doing amazing things by allowing God to shine brightly in and through you!! <3

  • http://www.emilyfisk.com Emily @ Made of Stories Blog

    I love this, Gloryanna! Thanks for the glimpse into your sweet heart. <3

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