Abortion Grief

If I only had a voice

Written by Kiley Shuler
It’s very dark in here mom
But He said I’ll be okay
That there’s no place safer for me mom
That you were made a special way
 
I told Him that I’m scared mom
He said you might be too
But I promise that you’ll love me mom
If only half as much as I love you
 
He said I’d have to be a strong man mom
When we heard daddy say goodbye
I wish I could see you mom
I hate to hear you cry
 
He said I might not meet daddy mom
But I think that we’ll survive
He told me grandpa’s great mom
That he can teach me how to drive
 
I hear you with the doctor mom
You’re talking about me
I hear you crying more mom 
He said we’ll do it by week 23
 
What are we doing mom?
He said I’ll be out next week!
I can’t wait to finally meet you mom
To feel the warmth of your cheek
 
I can feel that you’re in pain mom
I hear you say you don’t want me
I’m so sorry mom
I just wish you’d wait and see
 
I wish you’d wait and see mom
That no, your life will not be the same 
But you’ll never be alone mom
And you needn’t feel your shame
 
Something is happening mom
I feel pain, hear your voice disappear
I don’t understand mom
I was told I’d be safe here
 
I never got to meet you mom
But I knew you before I died;
Your voice, your touch, your cry, mom
Only I could hear your heart beat from the inside
 
I’m with my Friend again mom
He said you’ll meet me here some day
I wish we could have met on earth mom
But until then, Heaven is where I stay 
 
He says I have your eyes mom
And the dimples in your cheeks
We were so close to meeting mom
I missed you by just a few short weeks 
 
You made a difficult choice mom
You made it all alone
I wish I could have helped you mom
I wish you would have known
 
I wish you would have known mom
That was not the only choice
There were other options for us mom
If I only had a voice.

About the author

Kiley Shuler

If you’re trying to discover who I am, it’s easiest to start with what inspires me. I have an odd personality that is equally inspired by inappropriate humor and Saturday Night Live to the deepest chasms of the Catholic church and a divine love for religion that transcends far beyond human comprehension; a love fueled by the Holy Spirit.