I started college for the first time 4 years ago, as a computer science major. I always envisioned myself working in an office somewhere away from people. However, I got one semester in and hated college, so I didn’t register for the spring semester of classes. I took three years off to figure out life (which I still haven’t figured out!) and worked full time. During that time, I went through a dramatic life style change, which helped me fall in love with health and fitness.
I had reached a point in my life where I felt like it was time to go back to school.
I wasn’t exactly sure why or what for, but I knew God was calling me back to school. I have always enjoyed kids and now I also enjoyed health and fitness. For these reasons, I felt like God was calling me into Health and PE Education.
I signed up for classes and started college knowing exactly what I wanted to do. Without a shadow of a doubt, I knew that teaching was meant for me. Which is ironic, since I spent spent 20 years of my life saying I would never be a teacher.
Teaching isn’t my natural gift. I’m soft spoken and I don’t like being in front of a group talking. However, I was reminded over and over that God uses our weaknesses for his Glory. I kept reminding myself this was his plan, not mine.
And then this semester came and half way through I had someone question my major for the first time.
Not just anyone, but one of my professors.
This professor felt like I would be better effective in a slightly different area stating that I didn’t quite have the confidence it takes to stand up in front of a group of students every day. But that’s why I’m in school right? To get better?
Suddenly everything I felt called to do, felt so wrong.
I’m not sure there is such a thing as mid-college crisis, but if there is, I’m there.
When I first started thinking about going back to school, the nutrition field was what I wanted to do. Unfortunately, the university I attend doesn’t offer that major. That’s when I felt God was laying my plans down and showing me what he had planned for my life. I believe he placed teaching on my heart but with teaching not being my natural gift, I immediately felt like this was my ticket out.
Even though I know this was my calling and what God has placed on my heart for the time being, I was ready to give it all up based on one little comment.
I still haven’t figured out what I am going to do. For the time being, I am trying to figure out what exactly God is calling me to do with my life.
So hello, mid-college crisis. I hear everyone has been here 🙂