Child Loss Grief

My Baby Was Gone

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Written by Jamie Kramer

I was 27 and married with one daughter and wanted so badly for her to have a sibling. After 10 months of trying, we were pregnant and over the moon! A few days after we found out that we were pregnant,  the spotting started and soon the excitement and planning turned to tears and doctors appointments to confirm what I already knew…my baby was gone.

6 months later we were pregnant again and 2 days before Christmas, we had our first ultrasound that had not 1 but 2 heartbeats.  We were having twins! With the OK from the doc, we shared our “Christmas surprise” with our daughter and immediate family.

But when going in for a routine pre natal appointment with ultrasound, I heard the words “Baby A doesn’t have a heartbeat.”  

Words can not describe the heartbreak in hearing those words or telling our daughter that one of the babies went to heaven. My son was born 7 months later without his twin. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about the “what ifs and what could have been.”  

I just know that I have 2 little angels now that I will meet someday.

About the author

Jamie Kramer

My name is Jamie Kramer. I’m a working mother of 3 wonderful, strong willed children: daughters are 9 and 2 and son is 5. I’ve been with my husband for 10 years total. I live in Lincoln, NE and work as a supervisor in social work.