I was 27 and married with one daughter and wanted so badly for her to have a sibling. After 10 months of trying, we were pregnant and over the moon! A few days after we found out that we were pregnant, the spotting started and soon the excitement and planning turned to tears and doctors appointments to confirm what I already knew…my baby was gone.
6 months later we were pregnant again and 2 days before Christmas, we had our first ultrasound that had not 1 but 2 heartbeats. We were having twins! With the OK from the doc, we shared our “Christmas surprise” with our daughter and immediate family.
But when going in for a routine pre natal appointment with ultrasound, I heard the words “Baby A doesn’t have a heartbeat.”
Words can not describe the heartbreak in hearing those words or telling our daughter that one of the babies went to heaven. My son was born 7 months later without his twin. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about the “what ifs and what could have been.”
I just know that I have 2 little angels now that I will meet someday.