I Carry the Baby I Lost In My Heart
I ignored it at first, the pink on the tissue. It wasn't anything to worry about. I'd known for three…
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I ignored it at first, the pink on the tissue. It wasn't anything to worry about. I'd known for three…
Continue ReadingI was afraid of the gap. You know, the one where you have some kids and then wait several years…
Continue ReadingI see you, mama, who holds her breath while they bag your brand-new baby. Asking “is she okay?” and being…
Continue ReadingMy third baby was due on October 19, 2019. Instead, she was born into heaven on March 24, 2019. Not…
Continue ReadingNewborns—who doesn’t love them? The captivating scent of a brand new baby, their fragile little bodies laying so delicately on…
Continue ReadingI didn’t realize the fear I would feel going into the operating room. My hands trembled and felt as if…
Continue ReadingThat little pink positive mark hit me. Hard. The pregnancy test revealed the news that I guiltily hoped was negative.…
Continue ReadingYou’re six months old today. Everything about you is so much bigger now—including the personality that’s showing through. But today?…
Continue ReadingYou came into this world much before your time. Your daddy and I weren’t ready for you, but that didn’t…
Continue ReadingSelfish. Unfair. Guilt stricken. Shameful. Those were just a few of the words that regularly stabbed my lamenting heart as…
Continue ReadingI had my first son when I was 23 years old. My husband and I named him Isaac, which means…
Continue ReadingMy husband and I sink onto our living room couch at the end of the day, cocooned within distant, sound-machine…
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