I think sometimes life is like a mission. We are going through life trying to find out what our mission is and how to complete it. Sometimes our mission is easy, other times we have to go through changes and break the hidden code to complete it.

I’ve had a variety of feelings along my journey. Happiness, sadness, pain, hurt and many others. I will never forget the feeling of heartache. The kind when you lose someone you loved so much, that it felt like part of your heart was completely gone. The pain was so much, you thought you were dying.

I remember feeling this way after losing my son a little over two years ago. There were times I questioned God. Why did this this happen? Others would say, “How could God do this?” Well, I remember from the night of the accident that God told me he had a plan. No, I do not understand his plan. I believe we are on a life mission, we have choices, there is happiness, and there is loss and pain. Our goal is to figure out what our mission is. God is molding us through these events and wants us to tell everyone how he can help them. God’s plan is never to hurt or harm, but to teach us how to react to events he places in our path.

With God our Mission is Possible.

When I hear people say I have been dealt a bad hand, I never have luck or I can’t do anything, I think that is really too bad. We can always stop that pattern and start new each day. Just because things don’t work out the way we think they should. We can either learn and grow by following our life mission or change paths and go down the road of darkness.

I know some people don’t agree with me that things happen for reasons. They also have a hard time understanding how I can look for the good in every situation. It’s a choice I choose to make because if I don’t the other choice is to be an unhappy person and sink into a deep dark life of sadness, which I know my son would never want me do. I know there are going to be hard times on my mission, but with God I can get through those hard times. I also know some people are going to think I’m crazy, but I strongly believe if we make a positive choice to change our self, ask God to help, then the rest of our struggles will get easier with time.

God did not promise us that our life would be easy, but he did promise he would walk beside us. God is grooming us to be more like him. Sometimes bad things happen to make us stronger and grow in our faith. Reach for God’s word. It’s amazing what you will find. I believe that is how we break the code.

For me, my eyes have been opened and I’m ready to receive my Life Mission. Are you ready to receive your Mission? Just remember it may seem IMPOSSIBLE but with God it is POSSIBLE!

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Missy Hillmer

Missy Hillmer is a writer, photographer, wife, mother, creative lady whose mind is constantly on the go. She loves coffee, dark chocolate especially with nuts, music soothes her soul and being outside in the sun recharges her body. She has an angel in Heaven. Her faith is what gets her through each day. Since her son Tyler’s accident she is passionate about telling her story with the hope that it will help or inspire at least one person who has lost a child.

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