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Grief
March 6, 2020
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I Miss You So Much, My Son

I miss you. I imagine you hugging me in my mind. I close my eyes, and I breathe you in. Your smell, your whiskers brushing my cheek, the way you…

Kids, Loss
February 21, 2020
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Duncan’s Pacifier Keeps His Memory Alive

This week my first grader came home with a paper bag and an assignment to fill it with items from our household that represent our family. In weeks…

Grief, Loss
January 22, 2020
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Dear Baby, I’ll See You In Heaven

I saw your face for just a moment before the nurse carried your lifeless body away. You looked like you were sleeping, except I knew I’d never…

Faith, Grief
January 13, 2020
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Only Jesus Can Carry the Weight of a Broken Heart

In July 2014, our 25-year-old son Ryan (my stepson) was killed when the gas can he was using to light his bonfire exploded. For three days, he was a…

Faith, Grief, Loss
January 10, 2020
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“God Has You in Heaven But I Have You in My Heart” TobyMac Grieves His Son in Raw New Release

It’s every parent’s worst nightmare: the death of a child and the impenetrable grief accompanying such a horrific loss. Grammy…

Grief, Motherhood
December 15, 2019
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My Son’s Death Taught Me Love is All That Matters

My name is Sarah, and I am Koa’s mama—a title I feel privileged to hold. My precious Koa was a bright light in the world, and he was a…

Grief, Loss
November 11, 2019
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5 Years, 7 Months, and 19 Days Just Weren’t Long Enough With You

I woke up this morning and sat up on my bed, legs dangling towards the floor. The heaviness of my eyes was overwhelming. I was exhausted, yet weirdly…

Faith, Grief
October 25, 2019
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Grieve, But Trust You Will Be OK

I tell myself . . . You are going to be OK. You just need to breathe. The anxiety may come. The anger. The sadness. But in time they will slow down.…

Grief, Loss
September 16, 2019
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There’s An Urn Where Her Smile Should Be

Have you ever sat in the mortician’s office? I have. I never planned on it. Nobody does. But then you lose a child. And there you are. Choosing an…

Friendship, Grief, Loss
September 15, 2019
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Holding Space in the Fragile Balance of Life

On this ordinary day in the NICU, I went to fill my bottle in the kitchen after my 1 p.m. pump. I saw a mama there, sitting alone, hiding her face in…