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Grief, Loss
November 11, 2019
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5 Years, 7 Months, and 19 Days Just Weren’t Long Enough With You

I woke up this morning and sat up on my bed, legs dangling towards the floor. The heaviness of my eyes was overwhelming. I was exhausted, yet weirdly…

Faith, Grief
October 25, 2019
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Grieve, But Trust You Will Be OK

I tell myself . . . You are going to be OK. You just need to breathe. The anxiety may come. The anger. The sadness. But in time they will slow down.…

Grief, Loss
September 16, 2019
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There’s An Urn Where Her Smile Should Be

Have you ever sat in the mortician’s office? I have. I never planned on it. Nobody does. But then you lose a child. And there you are. Choosing an…

Friendship, Grief, Loss
September 15, 2019
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Holding Space in the Fragile Balance of Life

On this ordinary day in the NICU, I went to fill my bottle in the kitchen after my 1 p.m. pump. I saw a mama there, sitting alone, hiding her face in…

Grief, Grown Children, Motherhood
September 7, 2019
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Dear Young Mom, I Wish I Was You Again

Dear young mama, First, let me apologize. I am guilty of saying “enjoy every minute” and “they’ll be grown before you know it”. I have…

Grief, Loss
August 31, 2019
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The Journey of Grief is All Your Own

My 7-year-old daughter, Emma, died seven years ago from complications associated with Pantothenate Kinase Associated Neurodegeneration, an extremely…

Grief, Loss
August 28, 2019
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The Pain of Losing a Child Never Ends

Sometimes, I just close my eyes and picture him. I remember his smile. His soft voice. His gentle touch with his baby brother. I remember how he and…

Grief, Loss
August 17, 2019
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The Brain Fog of Grief

Something happened to my brain when my son died. I felt like it was shrouded in a dense fog. Like I was wandering an unfamiliar road, in the dark,…

Grief, Loss, Motherhood
June 29, 2019
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A Bereaved Parent’s Battle Cry

This is a bereaved parent’s battle cry. I’m tired . . . tired of having to hide how I am truly feeling from the rest of the world. Tired of…

Baby, Loss, Motherhood
May 16, 2019
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The Invisible Mother Hurts and Hopes

In a world full of mothers, so many of them seem to go unnoticed, unrecognized. Forgotten. They belong to a special class of mothers who walk amongst…