I Asked God To Stop Sending Me Babies I’d Never Hold
With each positive pregnancy test, it was a restrained joy, for I knew we shouldn’t fully celebrate. As experience often…
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With each positive pregnancy test, it was a restrained joy, for I knew we shouldn’t fully celebrate. As experience often…
Continue ReadingTrigger warning: Infant loss “We have to do this for Gabby," my husband paused on the sidewalk to squeeze my…
Continue ReadingMy first feeling was shock, followed by a messy crush of emotions—disappointment, guilt, relief. After enduring three years of invasive…
Continue ReadingThe usual elevator awkwardness was particularly irksome that day. I adjusted my purse and glanced at my phone as if…
Continue ReadingGod, I’m leaning in. I’m leaning into this grief. I’m leaning in to this valley. I’m going to need You…
Continue ReadingI am 1 in 4. In May, I had a miscarriage. I started bleeding over the holiday weekend. I made…
Continue ReadingOctober was child loss awareness month. I realize this each year when I start seeing posts about it on social…
Continue ReadingSomeday I’ll tell them . . . The babies my arms have never carried, though my heart always will. Someday…
Continue ReadingCOVID-19 was declared a pandemic on March 11th, 2020. On March 12, I saw your heartbeat. I listened to the…
Continue ReadingAuthor's note: I understand it is early to be sharing with the world such a traumatic experience. My husband and…
Continue ReadingIf I don’t write it all down, will I forget? Will there come a day when I no longer remember…
Continue ReadingNo, this is not my husband holding our newborn daughter. He is not my brother. He is not a cousin,…
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