There is So Much More To the Loss Mom’s Story Than Meets the Eye
Jon pulls the car up to the door of the hospital. I know where to go and what to do. I’ve done this many times before. He drives off to find a…
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In the NICU You Proved You Were Tiny But Mighty
I waited seven long months of pregnancy for your arrival but still wasn’t ready for the moment you came early. Suddenly, everything seemed scary…
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To the Mama Sitting in the NICU: Hold On
Imagine for a second . . . you’re 30 weeks pregnant. One minute you’re walking into a routine OB appointment, and the next minute you’re being…
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Holding Space in the Fragile Balance of Life
On this ordinary day in the NICU, I went to fill my bottle in the kitchen after my 1 p.m. pump. I saw a mama there, sitting alone, hiding her face in…
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There’s Nothing Quite Like a Nurse
“You should rest.” The kind voice came from behind me. “She will be fine, I will call you if anything changes.” I leaned back in the hard…
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Dear NICU Parents, I Pray For You
Dear NICU mama, I pray for you. I don’t know you, but I was in your place once before, even if it was for just a short time. I sat there in…
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He Took His Last Breath in the Only Outfit I Ever Bought Him
That perfect little outfit. A soft, blue sleeper with tiny elephants dancing across. When I was pregnant, I thought about that “going home”…
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To the NICU Mom Who’s Back at Home
Hi mama, You’ve been home for six months now. I bet some days it feels like you just left the NICU, and other times it feels a world away. You’re…
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When a Rainbow Baby Arrives in a Storm
Turkey and mashed potatoes sit blandly on the dark brown tray of the hospital bed in front of me. I pick at them blithely, despite being ravenous, as…
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The NICU Healed My Baby—and My Hurting Heart
When I became pregnant with my first child after years of trying and lots of prayers, I had a picture in mind of how the birth would go. My water…
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