To the New Mom At Home When it All Feels Unknown
There’s an old hymn I sing when I rock my babies to sleep. I sang it during my deepest depression with tears falling on my firstborn’s little…
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What I Really Mean When I Say I’m Fine
The nurse handed me a piece of paper with questions I had been dreading to answer. I put on my best I’m fine face while simultaneously sipping a…
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I Am the Face of Postpartum Rage
This is the face of postpartum rage. I didn’t feel sad or depressed. I didn’t have anxiety. But I did cuss my husband out, slam doors,…
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Yes, I Struggle—And I’m a Good Mom
“But you’re such a good mom.” The words took my breath away. I was with a few moms outside my daughter’s dance class. I…
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Sometimes Love Comes After First Sight
You will fall immediately in love with your baby. This is what they tell you. Here are the other things they tell you: You will feel complete at…
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I Wish Someone Had Noticed My Postpartum Anxiety
“Have you been depressed or thought of suicide?” The question rolled off the doctor’s tongue, and I smiled and shook my head on cue. I had…
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Mothering With Anxiety One Hard-Fought Moment at a Time
I have always been a little scared of being a mom, and at times, terrified. It makes a lot of sense. I’ve got GAD, OCD, and PD and some other…
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Dear Mama, To Me You Are Perfect
You may not love it, Mama, but I do. I see the way you look at yourself in the mirror, Mama. I hear you complain to Daddy that you have “huge…
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To the Mama Sitting in the NICU: Hold On
Imagine for a second . . . you’re 30 weeks pregnant. One minute you’re walking into a routine OB appointment, and the next minute you’re being…
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I’m a New Mom, Let Me Cry These Tears
I sit on the hospital bed as a new mother, which I became in mere seconds, to a perfectly healthy baby. The river running down my face must mean…
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