I Thought There’d Be One More
I thought there’d be one more. One more baby to swaddle and sway to sleep in my arms. One more baby to praise for those first steps taken and first…
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Facing My Fears as a Rainbow Mother
It is late 2014, and I wake from another restless sleep. I am pregnant with my first surviving baby. I am having the same recurring dream in which I…
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You See an Only Child—I See an Answered Prayer
We were on our very first walk around the neighborhood when I was first asked the question that would follow me around forever. Our newborn son was…
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To the Loss Mama Waiting For Her Rainbow Baby
I became a part of the pregnancy loss community almost 10 years ago when I had my first miscarriage. It wasn’t a club I had hoped to join. I’m…
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The Orca Who Quietly Showed Us How To Grieve a Child is Pregnant Again
Oh, Mama Orca! Two summers ago, we watched as you grieved your calf who died. We watched as you carried your baby’s body for 17 days, never…
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Dear Rainbow Baby, You Bring So Much Joy
He asks me to watch him swing every day. Sometimes I watch him through the window as I make dinner. Other times I pull up the little, blue lawn…
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Dear Rainbow Baby, We Love You Enough For Two
What you don’t know is the ultrasound picture on the refrigerator isn’t you. I couldn’t bring myself to take hers down, and still…
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I Never Take the Little Things For Granted Anymore
I love our son’s cry. To us, it means life. It means we have a living baby in front of us. When our first son Carter was born at 9:06 p.m., we…
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On the Unknown Road, God Walks Beside Me
It’s been five years. Five years this month since the first miscarriage happened. I took it pretty well, but if I would have known how it was just…
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His Twin Gave Him Life—And Me, a Son
A week after I had the thrill of seeing a very strong heartbeat blinking away on the ultrasound, my husband and I were at our fertility doctor’s…
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