Faith Inspiration

Just as He Planned

Just as He Planned
Written by Missy Hillmer

Some women seem to have it all together… happy, thin, pretty, great hair, gorgeous smile, handsome husband, and good kids. Well, I can’t say I’m all those things, but I do have people tell me, “you are the strongest person I know and seem to have it all together.”

I may appear to have it together, but it has not always been that way. My life has not always been positive or easy. I have struggled with kids bullying me in country school; not fitting in the popular crowd in high school; not feeling I was good enough because I didn’t have the cool clothes like everyone else. I can remember telling God I just didn’t want to be here anymore.

I had friends, one or two, but nothing like the popular kids who hung out with a group. My one or two good friends were just that…good friends. Back then, I didn’t consider myself popular, think I was pretty or believe that anyone would listen to what I had to say.  Back then, I believed in God, talked to Him and prayed, but my faith was not as STRONG as it is now.  

I can remember in college planning out my perfect life.  I knew what my husband would look like, when I wanted to marry, when I would have kids, how many, what perfect job I would have and that I would live happily ever after.  HELLO, that doesn’t even happen in books anymore! It didn’t happen in my life, either.  The guy I thought I would marry I didn’t.  

Thank God for that! 

It was not my plan, but I am blessed with the one God did pick for me.

 After I got married and had kids, I thought my life was going in the exact direction I had planned. God had other ideas.  Twists, turns, and bumps have repeatedly disrupted my perfectly planned world.

God had a plan for my life back then just as he does now. The girl that didn’t feel like she was good enough in high school, slowly changed. She worked on being positive, grew herself personally and continued to pray and look to God for guidance.

I still have a hard time believing people want to hear what I have to say. I still don’t feel like I have it all together even if it looks like it on the outside. “Why me?” I ask God.  But, it was loud and clear the night of August 23, 2013 when God showed me how MIGHTY and POWERFUL he was. The night God took my son home with him. The night I had two choices – Trust or Not.  

I chose to Trust! 

God is in control and he has totally changed how “I” had planned my life.  You see it is not at all about “I” it’s about Him. I would encourage you to step back and look at your life. Are you planning it or are you Trusting God as he plans it?

About the author

Missy Hillmer

My name is Missy Hillmer. I’m married, live in a small town named Palmer, NE and have 3 children. Jake is our oldest who is 19 years old and Gracie is 11 who lives here with us. Tyler which was 15 years on August 20, 2013 is now in Heaven. He was killed in a car accident just 3 short days after his 15th birthday.

I am very honest, very real sometimes to the point of not being fun, I guess that’s because I’m a black and white kind of girl. I like to look at the positive in every situation. I really believe there are two ways to look at things. Look for the bad or the good. The “bad” does me no justice and can spiral out of control in a heartbeat. The “good” however gives me hope and it connects with my belief that God is with me through everything.

I believe my faith has gotten me through life and especially since my son’s accident. I pray a lot more, watch for the signs that God gives me, listen to my inner gut feeling, as my husband calls it and really focus on living a simple life. Family means everything to me, I love to laugh and think it’s the best medicine for any problem. Music soothes my sole and being outside in the sun brings me great joy!

I have learned that many times you cannot control the storm in your life but, you can learn to dance in the rain. I really mean it when I say DANCE in the RAIN! The summer before Tyler’s accident, Tyler, Gracie & I danced in the rain. This memory I will never forget!

Since Tyler’s accident I am passionate about telling my story with the hope that it will help or inspire at least one person.