Dear Mommy,

Things feel different since you brought home the new baby.

You told me things would change and they have, but you’ve also changed.

You’re sad and you cry a lot.

You sometimes snap at me, and I’m unsure what I’ve done wrong.

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Other days, I ask you to come and play with me and you say you can’t, that you’re too busy. But then, I just see you sitting there on your phone or staring at the wall like you’re deep in thought. 

You apologize a lot and say, “Mommy’s not feeling very well right now.”

Daddy says you have something called postpartum depression, and I don’t know what it means but he says it makes you really sad.

Mommy, why are you sad?

Don’t you know how much I love you? Do you still love me and the new baby? 

You brought this new baby home, can’t you see how much we both need you?

Mommy, you always tell me how much God loves me and how He can help us with anything.

Can God make you feel better? Can God make you happy? 

I hope you feel better soon, Mommy, so we can play and laugh like we used to. I miss your smile and your laugh, but I’ll be patient as Daddy tells me to be.

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I’ll wait for God to take away your sadness. I’ll wait for you to be happy again.

Just remember, I love you and we need you.  

And God loves you, too. 

Love,
Your sweet child

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Courtney Devich

Courtney Devich is the author of "Mama's Got Anxiety," and she relies on Jesus and reheated coffee every day. Using humor, honesty, and relatability in her writing, she writes with a heart for the mama struggling with anxiety and depression. Courtney is a former human resources professional, using her leadership skills to manage kids as a stay-at-home mom. You can find her in the Starbucks line at her local Target, binge-watching TV with her husband, or chasing after a kid (or two) at her home in Michigan.

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