Dear Mama,

I don’t remember if our house was big or small or if we rented or owned. 

I don’t remember if you had a fancy car or if we had to take the bus.

I don’t remember if the house was clean and tidy or if it was covered in washing piles and scattered toys.

I don’t remember if my pram was new or secondhand or if I had the latest new toy or designer clothes. 

I don’t remember if you were dressed up or if your face was bare, it always looked perfect to me.

I don’t remember if you had a lot of money or whether you lived paycheck to paycheck.

I don’t remember if we went out every day or went on expensive holidays.

I don’t remember how sometimes you got angry or cried or had to walk out of the room to take a breath.

I don’t remember a schedule, a checklist or any expectations other than just you.

What I do remember is feeling safe.

I remember your comfort and how you kept me warm.

I remember your face above me when I cried for you.

I remember you would feed me when I was hungry, or tired or in pain.

I remember your smell and how it would send me off to sleep, sometimes at 2 a.m., then again at 4 a.m.

I remember your smile; it was the first reason I smiled.

I remember how you played with me and got down on the ground with me before I could get up.

I remember you taught me about love before anything else and how it was my constant. 

I remember knowing it was the only thing I ever really needed and you gave that to me, I never had to work for it, I relaxed in it. 

Thank you for teaching me that love has no limits, that it’s unconditional and honest. 

This is what I will remember, Mama. 

Thank you for giving me the best memories of all. 

Originally published on the author’s Instagram

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Jessica Urlichs

Stay at home mother to my two children Holly & Harry born a year apart. Lives in New Zealand with her husband and of course Bentleigh & Winson, my two adorable fur babies. Writing has always been my passion since a young girl, I love to connect with others on this challenging yet incredible journey of motherhood. Follow along on Facebook and Instagram.