Free shipping on all orders over $75🎄

I was already a mom of two teenagers. I thought I’d move to a city and join corporate America in a few years. But my last baby changed me. There would be no law school or big city living. Now, I write about life in my little country home. And I don’t see that changing.

I thought I’d be that old lady with 10 cats. I already had three I snuggled and loved on. I never cared about the litter box, the clawed couches, or the meowing. But now I find myself disliking pets. I hope that might change.

But for now, that’s the truth.

Before I had my last baby, I dyed and did up my hair. I wore heels and form-fitting dresses. Now, I let the gray shine through. I give my hair a brush and call it a day. A T-shirt and shorts is my go-to outfit. I’ve traded in my heels for comfortable sneakers. But I feel just as beautiful as I did back then.

RELATED: There’s Just Something About That Last Baby

I used to get angry about things out of place. Dishes in the sink and laundry on the floor drove me crazy. But now I consider my house clean as long as there’s no food stuck to the floor.

My last baby has taught me I need to let some things go.

My favorite season was summer. No temperature was too hot. I’d lay in the sun for hours and get a deep tan. But since I’ve had her, I can’t stand the heat. I find myself staying inside with the AC and wishing fall would just get here already. 

I used to love pushing the mower around my lawn and weeding the flowerbeds. But now, I just want to curl up with a book, bake in the kitchen, and snuggle with her.

Not long ago, I was a night owl. I stayed up late to clean. And then watched a movie or two. It would be early in the morning before I’d fall asleep. If my day started at 6 a.m., I woke up feeling rested. These days, I’m ready for bed before she is. And four hours of sleep doesn’t work anymore. 

RELATED: When It’s Your Last Baby

I guess you might say my last baby aged me. And maybe that is partly true.

But I do know she changed me.

Having her made me dislike pets and the heat. It helped me let go of messes and required that I get more sleep. Since having my last baby, my hobbies have changed.

I’m not the same person I was before her. It’s amazing how much a person can change in one year. But all these changes are for the better. I’ll gladly accept all these changes and more because having my last baby filled a hole in my heart. And that change makes every change worth it.

So God Made a Mother book by Leslie Means

If you liked this, you'll love our new book, SO GOD MADE A MOTHER available now!

Order Now

Katelyn Washington

Katelyn is a writer, editor, and parent to three wonderful children. She is passionate about environmental issues and human rights.

You Are My Last, Sweet Baby

In: Motherhood
You Are My Last, Sweet Baby

You are my last. My last scent of baby . . . my last newborn onesie . . . my last first smile with your toothless grin. It’s only been four months and I miss it all already. Your toes are still little but not brand new. You already are larger than the little peanut on my chest from a few weeks ago. How I wish the time could slow. As I was holding you close the other night I tried my hardest to breathe you in, to remember your smell and how I was feeling at that exact moment....

Keep Reading

Motherhood Has Changed Me So Very Much

In: Journal, Kids, Motherhood
Motherhood Has Changed Me So Very Much

Sometimes, I miss the old me. Just saying the words makes me cringe. A betrayal of sorts to the important title I hold today. But it’s true. I miss me. I miss the me who never missed a workout class. I miss the me who spent most Saturday afternoons shopping slow and leisurely. I miss the me who did brunch spontaneously. I miss the me who waited up for my husband to get home to watch a movie at 11 p.m. Because now I’m her. I’m a mom. A title I prayed to have. I title I dreamt about, really...

Keep Reading

Your Firsts Are My Lasts—So Grow Gently, My Love

In: Motherhood, Toddler
Your Firsts Are My Lasts—So Grow Gently, My Love

Dear sweet “baby” of mine,  There’s so much I want to tell you about the shoes you’ve filled—still the tiniest feet in the house. You may feel small, but you’re mighty. You carry quite a title around these days. It took me a while to realize it, but everything you do is so very important.  Why?  Because it’s the last first time I’ll see it. You see, I always imagined starting a family: the excitement, joy, anticipation, and (justifiable) nervousness of adding a baby to our duo. But whoever imagines finishing it? I never contemplated the feelings that would arise once we decided to finish our family, when we knew you’d always be...

Keep Reading