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When I was a freshman in high school, my basketball team was small. In fact, it was so small we didn’t have a freshman or JV team. My coach was tough. He had high expectations and conducted physically and mentally demanding practices. I suited varsity, but only got in the last minute or two (if we were winning by enough).

Essentially, I only had the opportunity to play in practice. However, I battled, knowing that next year could be my year.

The beginning of my sophomore year was different. It was a huge disappointment for me. I still found myself sitting on the bench, going in the last minute or so when my team was up big. The basketball season is a grind, and I don’t care what anybody says, winter sports (basketball and wrestling) are the most challenging. The weather is cold, it gets dark at 4:30 p.m., it’s long, there are 3-4 games a week at times . . . it’s exhausting. The weak will not survive, and at that time, I was weak.

I begged my parents to let me quit.

They didn’t say no, but they gave me a condition. I could quit IF I approached my coach and asked him about my role, and what I could do to get better.

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Approach Coach P? To me, this was an absolute nightmare. I didn’t sleep that night. The entire school day, I didn’t hear a single word my teachers said because I was so focused on how and when I would approach him. I decided in math class that I would do it after practice that night.

Practice flew by. It always seems like when you are dreading something, time races to the moment. I took my practice shoes off, put on my sweats, and walked across the gym to what felt like my execution.

Coach was sitting in his office, already creating a scouting report for the next game. I asked if I could talk to him, and as soon as I sat down, I started sobbing. I was thinking, “OHMYGOSH, OHMYGOSH, EMMA STOP CRYING,” but I couldn’t. My disappointment and self-doubt all exploded into a disastrous ball of emotion. So here I was, bawling in front of the man I feared most in this cold, dark world—and I mean bawling—and do you know what he did?

Coach gave me a huge hug.

He let me talk (at least through my sobs), and then he let me listen. He was honest. He told me that I wasn’t ready. I was too weak to be on the floor when it mattered the most, I didn’t work hard enough in the off-season, but he told me that I had potential, and asked me to stick with it.

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I am honestly crying as I write this, thinking about how grateful I am for that moment with him, and for the guidance from my parents. I finished the season, despite a lack of playing time, and worked hard that summer. The next year, I played in every single game. I was awarded Honorable Mention All-Conference, and our team made it to the substate regional final, where I had 15 rebounds against IKM-Manning.

The following year, I was a senior captain and starter. After the best athletic season I have ever participated in, my team made it to the first state tournament since the 1960s. I was again an All-Conference selection, and was invited to play at the Iowa All-Star Basketball game in Cedar Rapids. My senior year laid the foundation for a 2010 team that would win its first state title.

What would have happened if my parents sent Coach P an email demanding to know why I wasn’t playing? What would have happened if they let me quit without having a conversation with him? My parents have taught me more things than I could ever count, but one of the most important things was to fight my own battles and never give up.

They could have badmouthed my coach in the stands, written terrible things about him on social media, or encouraged me to quit. I know this because as a coach, I get a lot of this every single season. I have even had parents take a picture of me and post it on Facebook with some very nasty comments. I have also had to ask my parents to escort me out of one of my games because I had parents waiting to confront me in the lobby.

However, my parents didn’t make this about themselves—they made it about the relationship between my coach and me.

To this day, Coach P has been one of the most impactful people in my life. Finding the courage to approach him and having the ability to trust his honesty led me down one of the greatest paths in high school. Now as a high school coach myself, basketball continues to be one of the biggest pieces of my life.

I urge all parents to encourage their children to fight their own battles. Have your kids come talk to me, but also make sure they are open to my honesty. I am not going to tell your child she deserves to play if she doesn’t. Coach P did not lie to me. He told me I wasn’t good enough to play yet, and I accepted that. In fact, I felt that he respected me enough to be honest with me. It motivated me, and I worked harder, until it paid off.

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Emma Bireline

Emma is a high school English/Language Arts teacher at Atlantic High School in Atlantic, Iowa. She is also the head varsity volleyball coach and assistant JV basketball coach for the Atlantic Trojans.

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