You Have Your Mother—I Want Mine, Too
I see you with your mother. I’m jealous. I don’t want to be, but I am. Pieces of my heart are so incredibly happy for you, but other pieces…
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The Thing About Grandpas is You Never Want Them To Leave
Grandpas are like Google. They have all the answers. Or at least, they think they do. And if they don’t have the answers, they just turn off…
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A Grandmother’s Gift From Heaven
I opened my front door to find a box full of goodies at my feet: a hot meal, gifts for each of my kiddos, and a box full of hand-me-down clothes. It…
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What Will Life Be Like Without My Dad?
“How are you doing?” friends ask with sympathy in their eyes. I give a standard reply because I don’t even know what I could say that would…
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I Thought There’d Be One More
I thought there’d be one more. One more baby to swaddle and sway to sleep in my arms. One more baby to praise for those first steps taken and first…
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To Love a Child To Eternity
She lifted the young child into her arms and experienced, for the first time, a love so big her heart could not contain it. Hugging the child close…
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Facing My Fears as a Rainbow Mother
It is late 2014, and I wake from another restless sleep. I am pregnant with my first surviving baby. I am having the same recurring dream in which I…
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My Mom is Never Coming Back To Get Her Shoes
Yesterday I was at my parents’ house helping my dad out with a few things. I went into the master bedroom to get something, and I saw these shoes…
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When You Have a Sibling in Heaven
Growing up, I always knew I had a sister in Heaven. I remember talking to her as a child. I would promise that I would make all the right choices so…
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Did I Take Him For Granted?
I used to drink a ton of coffee, but in January, for health reasons, I switched to herbal tea. One morning, about a week and a half after I’d…
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