I Still Miss the Baby I Never Met
When I found out I was pregnant with you, I came across this little bib on Amazon. It said “Sweet” right above an adorable pea-in-a-pod…
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Some Days I Forget You’re Gone
Some days I forget you’re gone. I skip the tall, skinny mocha because I don’t want to overdo it on the caffeine. I practice…
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The Baby We Hide Deserves to Be Known
You know about the child I lost. It was 2007, and I was pregnant with my second. Everything seemed to be going well as far as pregnancy is…
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We Said Goodbye Before Hello
Dedicated to my daughter and to all who unfortunately relate. I still recall that August day, The worst day of my life. Because I never knew before…
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To the Woman Staring at Another Pregnancy Test
To any woman picking this box up to stare at it in longing, in mourning, in hesitation. To wonder. To wish. To throw it in her shopping cart again…
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Dear Baby, I’ll See You In Heaven
I saw your face for just a moment before the nurse carried your lifeless body away. You looked like you were sleeping, except I knew I’d never…
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Even When Your Arms Are Empty, God is Still Good
I stared at the ceiling in the dark emergency room with as much strength as I could muster. I knew the technician was trained to not convey emotion,…
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On the Unknown Road, God Walks Beside Me
It’s been five years. Five years this month since the first miscarriage happened. I took it pretty well, but if I would have known how it was just…
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The Pain of Pregnancy Loss Has Made Me Who I Am Today
My husband called me the Baby Whisperer. Not because I could talk to babies, but because whenever my friends found out that they were pregnant, they…
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His Twin Gave Him Life—And Me, a Son
A week after I had the thrill of seeing a very strong heartbeat blinking away on the ultrasound, my husband and I were at our fertility doctor’s…
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