I'm Even Grateful For the Tantrums

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At first, when you would scream and cry I would dread every second of it. I would pray for you to stop, for just five minutes of peace and quiet, and do whatever I could to try to change your mood. Hearing you scream would stress me out, overwhelm me, and make me think I am doing something wrong. “God, please stop,” would be my constant thought.

But now . . . I even savor these tantrums.

I have learned this is part of you growing and expressing yourself. This is how you communicate with me. This is part of you being my little baby. One day you will outgrow this stage and your tantrums will be very different. You will want to be alone in your room, have a major attitude, and just not want your parents around you.

But right now, this is a reminder that you are still my baby, so I will savor these tantrums.

Some people may never get to experience their little ones having tantrums.

Some may not be able to have little ones of their own.

Some may lose their little ones before their lives even get started. Some may have little ones who physically cannot do everything you can.

These families may never experience tantrums and would probably give anything to have just one.

So, for right now, I will even savor these tantrums.

You are a piece of me. I am watching you grow and learn every day. So please forgive when you get mad or upset, scream and cry and I just watch with a little smile on my face while trying to comfort you.

Because right now, I will savor these tantrums.

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Shaina Sweeney

Hello everyone! My name is Shaina Sweeney. I am a very proud mommy to a beautful baby girl and adorbale pup, and let's not forget, proud wife to an incredible husband! I just want to share my experiences becoming a new mom so anyone who stumbles upon this will know, they are not alone! Motherhood is truly a blessing.

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