Hello sweet child,

I’m your mommy. I tremble as I write these words because I have prayed for you for so long. Every part of my heart aches to hold you in my arms and tell you how much I love you. How wanted you are. How much you belong to me.

You are coming into our family like only the way the Creator of your life could plan it to be. While I never carried you in my womb, I never felt your first kicks or saw a positive pregnancy test, you have been growing in my heart just like all of your other siblings. I long to see what you look like and get to know what makes you unique. From the moment your dad and I found out you would be coming into our family one day, I have been praying for you. I started praying for your little body as it was formed, for your tiny soul and for the two people who created you and brought you into this world. From the day your birth mother made the brave choice to carry you, she also chose to give the most precious gift of you to me. There is no greater love than this.

You have always been a part of our family, little one. You were chosen before you were formed and loved beyond measure. Our story as mother and child will be one of great joy, searching, faith and growth. We will learn from one another as we walk through the ups and downs of life. We will answer hard questions and go on grand adventures. And we will do this together by the grace of God. His Word will be our guide and my heart will be your home.

While He is writing your story already, He is writing mine as well. The Lord is already preparing my heart for your arrival and drawing me close to Him as I navigate the emotions of you coming into our family. I’m praying for a softening in my heart towards yours, for patience as we love together and for Him to relentlessly pursue your precious heart from your first breath. Your heart is so valuable, my child. As much as I love you, I could never love you as much as He does; His love is perfect for you. And our choice of joy to welcome you into our family is an extension of that love. And it will be my job as your mom to point you towards Him; the One Who chose you for me.

And so I pray and wait for you with great anticipation. There is a space in my heart and our family that is physically empty but already overflowing with love, and we know that you will be the perfect fit. I can’t wait to tuck you into bed, watch you play with your siblings, teach you how to tie you’re shoes, bake cookies together and tell you all about Him. The Author of your story already knows you. And the love He has placed in my heart for you is indescribable and fierce.

You are coming little one. You are a gift. And I can’t wait to meet you.

Love, Mom

Lauren Eberspacher

I'm Lauren and I'm a work-in-progress farmer's wife, coffee addict, follower of Jesus and a recovering perfectionist. When I don't have my three kids attached at my hip, you can find me bringing meals into the fields, dancing in my kitchen, making our house a home, and chatting over a piece of pie with my girl friends. I'm doing my best to live my life intentionally seeking all that God has for me and my family. Follow me at: www.fromblacktoptodirtroad.com From Blacktop to Dirt Road on Facebook laurenspach on Instagram