It’s no secret that I’ve been longing to add another baby to our family. But for our family to grow; someone else loses. That’s a tough pill to swallow. However, we don’t feel like our family is complete yet. I hope that feeling is God-given and that it might mean that there is another baby out there who will be the perfect addition to our family.
We’ve been thinking & talking about adding to our family for a while now. This summer, we felt the time was right. We took a leap of faith and contacted the adoption agency to let them know we were ready to start the process for another adoption. This is the same agency we used previously- we trust them & like how they view what they’re doing as a ministry.
After months of paperwork, physicals, background checks, home visits, interviews etc., I’m happy to say that we are ready to bring home a baby. We are officially a resource family (basically that means we’re a waiting family). If there’s a mom (and/or dad) who is seriously considering adoption, then maybe we can be a resource for them. Another option for them to consider.
We don’t know when we’ll get that call to bring home our baby… it could be days, weeks, months or years. It might never happen. And while I was ready to bring home a baby last week, we have to be okay with that. That’s the reality of adoption. There are no guarantees. Just because we’re ready to bring home a baby doesn’t mean we’ll get that chance.
We’re excited at the thought of another baby to love. We can’t wait to for Kara to be a big sister and to see how Matt masters being a big brother to more than one. I have a feeling I’ll soon be jumping every time the phone rings, wondering if it’s going to be THE call. So I apologize in advance to my friends & family. If I answer the phone sounding a bit disappointed, I swear, it’s not you. But let’s be honest, you’re not the adoption agency.
We’re trying to hold on to hope and have faith that it will happen when it’s supposed to; that the right baby will come at the right time. But it’s hard for me to not be in control. Selfishly, I want to pray that we’ll be blessed with a baby soon. Very soon. But that just doesn’t seem right, especially knowing when we’re rejoicing over the blessing of a baby, another family will be shedding tears over their heartbreaking loss. But I will pray for all those facing pregnancy, hardship & difficult choices, those who are longing to bring home a baby, and for all those who work with these families. As the holidays approach, I can only imagine the heartache that so many are facing. That serves as a good reminder for me to appreciate the many blessings I already have.
I’m eager to see what is in store for our family as we continue on the road to adoption. While I don’t really WANT to wait, I have a feeling Matt & Kara will be a pretty good distraction! 😉