I needed that hug more than you did.
Today just like any other day was filled with many ups and downs.
A day full of many fusses, many fights, and many tears.
It was full of “Mommy I need this,” and, “Mommy I need that.”
The day was one of which my stress levels had gotten the best of me, and I felt like I was doing more harm than good.
One of those days when you find yourself wondering if they were comprehending that there was three of them and only one of me.
You know those days don’t you?
So I found myself wondering what does it feel like to them?
Do they feel the ups and downs in their little world?
How does it affect them going through the day with many fusses and fights accompanied by many tears?
How does it feel to them too need many things throughout their day?
How does the stress of the day make them feel?
Did they feel like maybe one sibling was getting more attention than them?
Then as I recalled all of the feelings above that each one of us had felt that day I felt a rush of tears coming to my eyes.
I had changed a multitude of diapers and then another was in need of changing.
I was getting more overwhelmed with each second that passed.
I finished up changing that diaper, and my baby who is ONE, wrapped His little arms around my neck, and laid his head on my shoulder.
That moment broke me.
He didn’t know it, but I needed that hug more than he did.
It’s like time just stopped and I was feeling just as comforted as he was.
Much like how our relationship with our Heavenly Father is.
Knowing that we all face so many things every single day, but each one of those things God sees and he knows how we feel.
We aren’t in this daily life alone, and He knows exactly what we stand in need of, and in that very moment of sharing that hug with my baby, I felt a hug from up above too.
I truly needed that hug more than anything.