The Last 6 Months Have Taken My Anxiety To a Whole New Debilitating Level
172 days. That’s how many days since my last Starbucks drink and boy, how much life has changed since. I remember that day very clearly. I had…
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Facing My Fears as a Rainbow Mother
It is late 2014, and I wake from another restless sleep. I am pregnant with my first surviving baby. I am having the same recurring dream in which I…
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In Dark Times, God Reminds Us: No Shadow Lasts Forever
Beep, beep, beep. I remember the sound of my heartbeat monitor like it was yesterday; how it felt to be tied to the breathing and feeding tubes like…
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God Sees You, Mama—And His Grace Covers All Your Fears
God sees you, mama of the toddler and the infant, wondering if you could ever possibly be enough for the both of them. Are you holding that…
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I’m Afraid To Drive
I was 23 when I finally got my driver’s license. I am now 26, and this is my hand after I drive on the highway. It is definitely one of my…
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Dear Kids, I Want To Be There For it All
I will never forget the day I received a phone call that my biological father lost his battle with the horrible and rare Huntington’s disease.…
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Little Kids Can Have Big Fears—Let’s Show Them a Bigger God
“Mommy, I’m shaking.” His little hands gripped the handlebars as he pushed his bicycle up the hill and away from the loud barking. The big dog…
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Fix Your Eyes on the Faithfulness of Our God
“This is getting crazy,” my husband said to me one night while we sat at the dinner table. “Stop talking to me about the virus. You’re…
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It’s Our Job as Parents to Carry the Weight of the World So Our Kids Don’t Have To
I was eight years old, sitting in elementary school computer class with a friend (no doubt playing KidPix, Oregon Trail, or some equally riveting,…
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The Day My Baby Was Born, I Was Born Again Too
When I saw the double-blue lines on the pregnancy test, I erupted into loud, boisterous sobs. While most women’s cries stem from excitement and…
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