God Held Us in His Arms As We Held Our Stillborn Baby in Ours
Today my daughter would have been one month old. I have been through more at 22 than most people go through in their entire lives, but I will never…
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The World May Forget Her But We Never Will
It has been 16 months since my first child was stillborn. Our surviving child, her twin, was very ill for the first year of her life. During this…
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I Never Got to Hear My Baby Cry
Life is made up of fleeting moments. Some you catch hold of and can fully enjoy. Some fly by so fast they are a blur in your memory. Then there are…
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We Said Goodbye Before Hello
Dedicated to my daughter and to all who unfortunately relate. I still recall that August day, The worst day of my life. Because I never knew before…
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Dear Baby, I’ll See You In Heaven
I saw your face for just a moment before the nurse carried your lifeless body away. You looked like you were sleeping, except I knew I’d never…
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Finding Hope Beneath the Blanket of Grief
The grief was exhausting—a thick, wool blanket that hung heavy on my shoulders. Often, I collapsed beneath the weight of it. I lie beneath…
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Her Name is Faith
When my husband and I first got pregnant, we weren’t quite sure what to think. We didn’t know if we were ready—after all, raising a human is a…
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You Kept the Kids Alive, But I’m the One Who Couldn’t
I hear it at least once a week–usually from a meme on social media. Someone joking that “at least I kept the kids alive.” While other moms…
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The Only Crying When Brendan Was Born Was Mine
I had a son. His name was Brendan. He would have been 11 years old this September. The kids were thrilled to be adding #8 to our beautiful family,…
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To the Pregnant Woman: Take the Picture
I’m not one to issue advice, especially when no one’s asking. I am especially hesitant to offer advice to a person when they are pregnant, but I…
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