Every day rain or shine, sleet or wind, snow or sun – she’s there. She’s always there. If you drive by anytime during the 8 am hour, you’ll see her walking. I often wonder where her route begins and ends – what music she listens to, what keeps her moving. Her grit against Mother Nature’s elements is admirable. She’s dedicated to her exercise routine.
I look for her now. This stranger brings me a bit of motivation each morning. More than she may realize.
I’ve felt frustrated with myself lately – mostly with my online business. I’m tired of the excuses I’ve been making. It’s been a cat and mouse battle with my mind the past few weeks. I’ll tell myself we can’t do it anymore. That it’s too hard and that we should be concentrating on other things. That we can’t keep up with the ever changing technology world; that we’re just a couple of girls who grew up in the 80s and 90s – before the internet boom, trying to live an impossible dream.
An old terror pops up in my mind every time I don’t know how to do something. It frightens me. It makes me feel like I’m back in my high school algebra, or geometry or calculus class – trying so hard to understand how to solve the problem and feeling helpless when the answer wasn’t found. Back then, I gave up. I told my brain math was silly and unimportant and that my teacher didn’t care. I decided not to try.
I don’t want to be like that again.
I made an effort this week to control those negative thoughts. Instead of feeling helpless, making excuses and trying to lean on other people for answers – I went digging. I sought out material from others in the online world with successful businesses.
I silenced the battle with my mind and found the answers- right there – in front of me, waiting to be put into action. A young husband and wife team with an online magazine – willing to share their secrets, income and expenses, how to find more readers, how to pay the bills.
It was all available for me. I just had to find it. I had to silence the negative in my brain and dig deeper. I took the time to learn. I’m still learning – trying to teach myself and others what just may work. I’m seeking the information needed to grow our business and pushing away the negativity that seeps its way into my soul.
Maybe you’re there too? Is something stopping you from completing your goals? Is there something weighing you down? Every day we have a choice. We can wake up and forge ahead or choose to stay in bed. It’s that easy – and it’s that difficult.
Today I choose to walk. I will put one foot in front of the other. I will battle the storm in my mind and take the lead. I will push through the negative and find a way to succeed. And I will practice this day in and day out, until it becomes part of my daily routine.
I hope you can, too.