To our baby who is in the presence of Jesus: 

There have been days I’ve sat down and longed for the sting of losing you to go away, but the truth is it never will. I’ve cried many bitter tears over the years after miscarrying you. Nothing makes that piece in my heart that was yours any better even though we know you’re in the presence of Jesus and there is absolutely no better place to be.

We now have a home full of siblings who would’ve loved to welcome you, but God had other plans for you. 

It’s still hard to wrap my mind around how excited yet nervous we were to be pregnant. Thinking how much more love would be filling our home soon. 

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We told a few of our close family members, and they were excited to have another sweet baby around, too. 

A few weeks went by, and it was time for a doctor’s appointment. Nerves were running high just as normal—little did we know, you weren’t going to make it.

There have been many things through life that have been hard, but this was unbearable. 

Going in pregnant just as we thought but knowing you would be taken from us was the hardest news we’ve ever received. 

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There have been tears cried silently when no one knew and tears when I was supposed to be happy about life. 

The truth is, as the Bible says in the book of Job, the Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.

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It’s a good place to be where the Lord can give you peace to endure the heartbreak of losing a baby, an innocent human who never got a chance to live in this world.

But oh, how that baby is living now, in the sweet, Holy presence of Jesus.

Though we love you and wish many things could’ve been different, God had a plan we can’t yet comprehend, but there will come a day we will hold you forever.

Kaela Ward

My name is Kaela Ward. I am a 27 year-old Christian. Also, a wife of five years—the good Lord has blessed us with three beautiful babies.