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Each spring, for years, my husband would throw grass seed in our backyard. As soon as the soft green spikes would begin to rise from the ground to make their presence known, they would disappear. His dream for a sea of backyard grass would be trampled by the feet of young boys, and his hope would be quickly diminished by just one neighborhood Wiffle Ball game.

Defeated, he would begin grumbling about how the grass in our backyard would never recover and why we had the only yard with a homemade baseball diamond comprised of oddly shaped dirt base baths, yet with a perfectly round large pitcher’s mound in the center. I didn’t have the heart to tell him that the boys would faithfully hose down and rake that pitcher’s mound when he wasn’t home in preparation for the next game to be played. Instead, like a supportive wife, I would just yell helpful advice to him from our deck like, “NOW YOU KNOW WHAT I GO THROUGH INSIDE THE HOUSE!!! YOU SAID YOU WANTED ALL BOYS!!! REMEMBER, HONEY: IF YOU BUILD IT, THEY WILL COME!”

And they did, for many summers.

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Many times a day, I would find myself startled by a foul ball smacking me in the head as I relaxed on our deck or one drilling the side of our house causing the dog to bark and the baby to wake up. I would often open an empty refrigerator in our garage after having just filled it with drinks the day before. I spent much time picking up the pieces of mangled Wiffle balls left behind to become victims of our lawnmower.

The grass wore and the dirt spread as the base paths grew larger and larger, signifying the start of base leading in little league.

We were forced to replace the pickets on a neighbor’s fence every couple of weeks, as the home run boundary moved further and further away. Right-handed batters started batting left to add an additional challenge for each player.

Until one day, the last game was played. The last strike was argued. The last home run was hit. Bats were put away for one last time even though a few Wiffle balls still lay strewn across the yard, waiting for the next game that had always come.

No one knew it was the last time.

Not the boys in the backyard, not the parents calling them home for dinner that day. It seemed almost overnight the field had suddenly become too small, the game no longer challenging enough, and the boyish voices I had listened to make bad calls all those summer days in the backyard had now lowered several octaves.

Youth baseball player
Image via Dawn Kearney Photography

One of the benefits of having a larger age gap between our older two boys and our youngest is the benefit of hindsight. We are often reminded of how quickly these “lasts” happen.

We won’t receive a sign from a third base coach, warning us. There won’t be an announcer or a scoreboard to let us know what inning we are playing in the game of their childhood.

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It serves as a reminder that if we aren’t paying careful attention, these lasts will whiz past us like a carefully placed fastball on a batter caught looking on a third strike. 

We all know the quote, “The days are long, but the years are short.” I knew it would happen quickly but even still, I was caught looking.

In my efforts to calm my husband down, I would often remind him that one day, very soon, we would look out from our kitchen window and find the most beautiful yard, filled with luscious green grass worthy enough to be the envy of any golf course. Our hearts though, would look out that same window and envy the old, dusty, dirt base paths and carefully crafted pitcher’s mound.

We have one little boy left in this house, our last. Now, when I look out from the kitchen window and see an empty yard with overgrown base paths, I try my best to enjoy him a little more. To listen and memorize the mispronounced words spoken in his little boy voice. To hold his hand that still fits neatly inside mine.

I still forget at times, but I think about the boys in our backyard and I am able to remember much more often.

Our youngest son was riding his little motorized 4-wheeler in our front yard the other day while our older neighbor watched him from his porch. I use the term riding fairly loosely. It really was just my son pushing the gas while I ran after him shouting, “Pay attention!” and “Watch where you’re going!” combined with the efforts of my hands quickly cutting the steering wheel to prevent collisions and protect our gardens.

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He spotted our neighbor, left me in the dust, and hightailed it through their lawn, dismounted his 4-wheeler, and stomped through their garden to join my neighbor on his porch. I quickly scolded him and apologized to our neighbor for the fresh 4-wheeler tracks on his front yard and the 5-year-old foot prints in his flower bed.

He smiled, welcomed my son, and said, “Don’t ever worry about that. We raise children, not lawns.”

True words spoken from the father in our neighborhood with the most beautiful grass.

Previously published on the author’s blog

Shannon Armenis

Is a full-time mom to three boys and a part-time writer. In between breaking up fights, forgetting to fold the laundry in the dryer and threatening to take away IPads, you can find her sharing her thoughts on parenting, marriage and life at https://shannonarmenis.com/

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