I’m not sure how it’s possible, but my youngest just turned two. I know that two is still awfully young in the game of life. But it also means she’s not a baby anymore. She’s a full-blown toddler creeping her way into a legit kid. This has hit me harder than I thought it would. Ready or not, my babies keep growing up.
I love, love, love the baby stage. I know not everyone is a baby person. But I am not one of those people. I love babies. I mean seriously, is there anything sweeter than a sleeping baby? Those baby giggles! And the way they snuggle right in—aww, it melts my heart every time. Then as they get a little older and learn to wave and blow kisses. I mean really, how can you handle that cuteness?!
But sadly, it’s time to end one of my favorite chapters.
We most likely won’t be bringing home any more babies to call our own. It also means we won’t be actively pursuing any more adoptions. Which is also sad in its own way too. While the adoption process is stressful, busy, emotional, and full of unknowns, it had an excitement to it. Just knowing you could bring home a baby at a moment’s notice. The adoption process has been a part of our lives for a long time. Between the months of paperwork x3, the waiting, and even the post-placement visits it seems like we’ve been in the adoption process more often than not.
I’ve had adoption on my mind for a long time—since before we were married. It feels a little strange to be choosing to move on. But after being blessed three times, we know we’re content with our family just the way it is. It’s more than we ever wanted.
When my other kids reached new milestones, it was exciting. Something new. I was always eager to see what was coming next. I also had hoped we’d be able to experience all those firsts again with a new little one so it wasn’t too sad to be moving on.
This go-around is different. She’s our last.
And while it’s still exciting to see all the new things she can do (trust me, it is!), it’s a whole lot of bitter-sweetness too knowing we won’t have these moments again.
But as my other kids have shown me, it really does keep on getting better! I will cherish those memories of having babies in our home and will enjoy the toddler years no matter how crazy they may be and live in the moment.
Instead of dwelling on what we’re saying goodbye to, I will hold on to the memories and get ready for what’s to come in the next chapter. I look forward to many more adventures with my family as my kids grow . . . just not too fast!