I never really went to college. I went for about a semester. To be quite honest, I was more interested in finding a husband and becoming a mother. See, all I ever really wanted was to be a mom. A career was never something I strived for. And I don’t regret it for a minute.
After I got married and had my first child, I had this yearning to become crafty. I guess I just needed something to enjoy that made me feel like more than just a stay at home mom. (Now don’t get me wrong, I love being a mom! And I admire ALL moms who do the best they can. I just had this desire for something to do outside of being a mom.) So I started my own home based business.
Through the last 20 years of my life, I have had so many odds and ends jobs. Sometimes I know that it’s frowned upon. Most people choose a profession and stick with it. If you’re one of those people, lucky you. I can’t imagine what it’s like to know what you want to do with your life that will earn you a living. I guess the way that I have always looked at it was God put me where he needed me. I’ve been a caterer, preschool director, mastectomy fitter, nail tech and most recently owner of a coffeehouse.
On one of my outings one day, I ran into a woman who had been pretty instrumental in inspiring me to start that home based business. She had not too long ago ran into my mother and they chatted about my recent opening of the coffeehouse. She had in sorts, congratulated me on “reinventing” myself.
I honestly had never thought of it that way. I’d always been made to feel like I just couldn’t stick with one thing. Even though I felt God put me where he wanted me. It’s funny how we allow others to make us feel unworthy or unimportant or whatever. I once had a friend tell me that one of the businesses I had failed. That statement seriously hurt. It took me awhile to get over it. But just because something didn’t turn out to be what others have in their mind, why does it have to be perceived as failure? Perhaps it was God’s plan.
But I loved this woman’s perspective. She honestly made me look at my life in a different way. “She” happens to be one of the writers on this site. I don’t know if she will see this, but I can only hope she does. Those words came at a time when I needed to hear them. I believe God put her where she needed to be that day. Because once again she inspired me. But this time it was to look at my life in a completely different way.
I’m still struggling with what I should be doing for my employment. But what I know now is this… If what I am doing doesn’t work out for whatever reason, I know that I can (and will)… reinvent myself.