Dear toddler,

I’m having a hard time. I’m frustrated, and I don’t always respond to you the way I should.

I know you’re little. I know you’re trying your best. And I know you’re frustrated, too.

You’re changing and growing so fast. Sometimes I’m not sure when to discipline you and when to let things slide. I know there are days when I’m too hard on you.

But I’m trying my best to teach, train, and help you grow.

Some days I get it right, but other days I feel I’ve failed you. I’m sorry for the days I yell. I’m sorry for the times I can’t give you the attention you so badly need. I’m sorry for the moments I lose my temper.

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I know it’s not fair to ask things from you that you’re not even capable of yet. I’m still learning and figuring out this whole parenting thing. I’m still learning who you are, my child.

I just want the best for you. And I’m trying my very best to make sure you have what you need. The toddler years are full of ups, downs, highs, and lows. Some days are full of sweet hugs and kisses, other days have nothing but tears.

But I love you on the best days, and I love you on the worst days.

Yes, I want you to know I love you more than anything. And I love watching you grow. You amaze me every single day. Even on the hardest days, I see that sweet sparkle in your eye. Behind all the crazy emotions, messy meltdowns, and temper tantrums, I see your heart. I see who you are right now and I see who you are becoming. 

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There’s nothing like your big bear hugs, slobbery kisses, silly smiles, and sweet snuggles. I love reading with you. I love teaching you how to snap your fingers, draw circles, and kick a soccer ball. Those special moments with you mean the world to me. You are my little one, my joy, and the apple of my eye.

At the end of the day, when you’re soundly sleeping and my mind can finally rest, I think about you. I think about our day together. 

I hope and pray I did everything I could to love, teach, and help you. I think about ways I can do better for you tomorrow. And yes, I even worry about you. Did you eat enough vegetables and get enough playtime? I wonder if I should be reading to you more. When should I sign you up for soccer? Did you have a good day? Are you happy? Do you feel loved?

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Dear toddler,

I’m having a hard time and I know you are, too. But I promise we will get through it together.

I’m trying my best and I know you are, too. 

I pray my love carries you through it all. 

Your very proud (and exhausted) momma

Audra Powers

Audra is a wife and a stay-at-home mom to three young children in Albuquerque, New Mexico. She loves hiking, music, and thrifting. Audra writes about faith, family, and living motherhood empowered. You can follow her adventures in motherhood on Instagram @audrapowers.