Do you remember growing up wondering who God was? I recall seeing pictures as a kid and thinking that he was real, but I was still confused.  I couldn’t touch him or see him in person and then, people would say, “He is the three in one.”  That really put me over the edge of understanding and believing. As a kid I can honestly say I believed in God or maybe it was the word God or possibly I believed it only in my mind. I knew he was important but I didn’t have that whole hearted 110% belief.  

It wasn’t until after I was married that I started to become curious about God. I had a young friend who died from cancer. I can remember visiting with a close friend about why God could let this happen.  I believed in God, that there was someone who had that name, but was not sure of his power.

My friend began to tell me about her faith and how she had been at a low place in her life when someone talked to her about asking Jesus into her heart. She was willing to try anything. She excitedly went on to explain that since she asked Jesus into her heart her life had changed so much! I was excited to find out more. But I was surprised she was openly talking to me about God and that she was not worried what I would think.

That day I decided I wanted what she had.

I set up a time to meet with her friend and she prayed a simple prayer.  Then, I asked Jesus into my heart so that I could be saved. I will never forget that feeling!  It was as if my heart was over flowing with warmth. She said that was the Holy Spirit coming into my heart. I knew I had done the right thing and wanted to learn more about God.  I still was not confident to talk to people I didn’t know about Him, you would never catch me quoting scripture and I still struggled believing he could really change my life that much. I started reading devotions, learned about prayer and I attended bible studies. But after my experience, I knew there was something important I needed to know about God.

Let me fast forward to August 23, 2013, the night of my son Tyler’s accident. I truly believe it was that night that changed my belief! I cannot tell you if it was God, Tyler or the Holy Spirit talking to me, but I know someone spoke to me that made me rise from the ground, stand in the middle of the road and listen.  

My message was this, ”That everything was going to be alright and that we would get through this.” 

That night God became REAL.  The voice that I heard was in the form of a breeze lightly blowing and the warmth of the full moon on my face as I closed my eyes. It was at that exact moment that my faith became the REAL kind and not the kind that you only think about in your head. It was the kind that I was compelled to share with EVERYONE. 

I am not afraid of what people think anymore.  I enjoy learning scripture and I find peace in it during hard times in my life. I hope that others will be curious like I was about God and want to ask Jesus into their heart so that they will be saved to go to heaven (Romans 10:9).  I hope sharing my story will let others know that no matter how bad life gets, our God is REAL! 

Missy Hillmer

My name is Missy Hillmer. I’m married, live in a small town named Palmer, NE and have 3 children. Jake is our oldest who is 19 years old and Gracie is 11 who lives here with us. Tyler which was 15 years on August 20, 2013 is now in Heaven. He was killed in a car accident just 3 short days after his 15th birthday. I am very honest, very real sometimes to the point of not being fun, I guess that’s because I’m a black and white kind of girl. I like to look at the positive in every situation. I really believe there are two ways to look at things. Look for the bad or the good. The “bad” does me no justice and can spiral out of control in a heartbeat. The “good” however gives me hope and it connects with my belief that God is with me through everything. I believe my faith has gotten me through life and especially since my son’s accident. I pray a lot more, watch for the signs that God gives me, listen to my inner gut feeling, as my husband calls it and really focus on living a simple life. Family means everything to me, I love to laugh and think it’s the best medicine for any problem. Music soothes my sole and being outside in the sun brings me great joy! I have learned that many times you cannot control the storm in your life but, you can learn to dance in the rain. I really mean it when I say DANCE in the RAIN! The summer before Tyler’s accident, Tyler, Gracie & I danced in the rain. This memory I will never forget! Since Tyler’s accident I am passionate about telling my story with the hope that it will help or inspire at least one person.