To the mama in waiting,

I was there. Anxiously waiting for those two pink lines. 

I was there. Thinking I would never know the joy of pregnancy. 

I was there. Crying my eyes out over the losses that stung so badly. 

I was there. Begging for God to give me healthy babies. 

I was there. Guiltily jealous of the pregnancy announcements. 

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I was there. Avoiding the baby aisle at every store. Those little clothes were too painful to look at. 

I was there. Doubting God’s faithfulness. 

And then, one day, I gained that sacred title of mommy

It wasn’t easy. It may not look the same for everyone.

For some, it may be injections and doctor’s appointments.

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For others, it may be waiting for a birth mother to pick them. 

I know your pain, mama in waiting. But trust me and trust Jesus, that somehow and someway, your heart’s greatest desires will manifest. 

Your journey to motherhood may be emotional and difficult no matter how you go about it. But, your story is beautiful, and it will make you appreciate your children even more once they do arrive. 

Kamrie Smith

Kamrie is a rancher’s wife, a mom of two girls, and an EMT. In her free time she enjoys horseback rides in the Montana mountains, coffee walks with friends, playing with her girls, and jotting down thoughts to share with others.