Anxiety tries to convince me I’m never doing enough. It tries to convince me that things will always feel out of control and chaotic. Anxiety tries to convince me to constantly compare my journey to others even when I don’t want to.
Is anxiety right on all the things? Does anxiety get it right on any of the things? Is anxiety right about me?
I am trying to do my best to distinguish facts from anxiety, but the line feels blurred a lot of the time. Shouldn’t I be able to tell the difference? I try to remind myself that anxiety is a liar. Sometimes, I feel like the liar is me.
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I feel this way a lot of times when someone asks how I’ve been doing. I question myself when the right time is to talk about the things that have been heavy on my heart. Anxiety tries to convince me it’s never the right time. I question myself: Who even wants to listen? Anxiety tries to convince me to question anyone who seems to want to.
Anxiety tries to convince me to cancel plans and not show up. Because I question if I’m ever doing enough. Because anxiety tries to convince me that things will always feel out of control and chaotic. Sometimes, the anxiety gets so loud I don’t have the energy to keep the plans and show up. I don’t know if the overthinking will ever come to an end.
But what I do know is that it’s exhausting feeling like you always have to face the anxiety alone. It’s exhausting feeling like you constantly have to be on high alert. Just not worrying is much easier said than done.
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Anxiety will always try to convince you that you’re never doing enough. Anxiety will always try to convince you that things will always feel out of control and chaotic. Anxiety will always try to convince you to constantly compare your journey to others. Anxiety doesn’t know any other way. Anxiety doesn’t get it right on all the things.
I could tell you to just not worry about things, but I know that’s way easier said than done. I know you’ve been trying to do your best to distinguish facts from anxiety. We need each other to help unblur the lines. There’s nothing wrong with that. Things may always feel out of control and chaotic, but that doesn’t mean you have to go through the chaos alone.
Anxiety will try to convince you of many things. Don’t let it convince you that you’re not enough. You are enough. I am enough. We are more than enough.
Originally published on the author’s Instagram page