Dear husband,
I need your help.
I need your help taking the break.
I so desperately need and deserve it.
I just don’t have the courage to take one.
I need your help because without it, I won’t do it for myself.
When I try to relax and reset, the mom guilt consumes me.
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It’s the kind of guilt only a mother would understand.
The never-ending laundry.
The dirty dishes.
The cleaning.
The kids.
The house.
The constant cycle that seems to leave me out.
All of it weighs me down.
It leaves me exhausted.
And I can’t help but feel selfish if I try to take some time for myself.
This guilt is so difficult to explain.
Just take a break. How hard can it be?
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I can’t even take 30 minutes to myself without feeling like this.
This is why I need your help taking a break.
Buy me a movie ticket for myself.
Bring me home a new book to read alone.
Run me a bath for just me.
Give me a few kids-free and house-free hours.
Schedule some time for me to work on my dreams.
Send me to dinner alone at my favorite restaurant.
Book me a hotel room for the night—for one.
Set me up for a pedicure, a massage, anything.
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Help me take a break for me. Don’t ask me, just do it.
If not, I won’t do it for myself. I will not make myself. I will talk myself out of it.
I hope one day I will learn to say no to the guilt and say yes to me.
For now, just help me. I need this break.