I love being pregnant. I love everything about it. I am, however, one of the lucky ones who has been blessed with stress-free pregnancies. I get the typical morning sickness in the first trimester and the utter exhaustion in the third trimester, but other than that, it’s just pure enjoyment. I know not everyone has that experience, some have horrific pregnancies, but for me they have all been relatively easy. Trust me, I do know how fortunate I am.
I’m currently pregnant with my fourth child. The little man is due this summer. From the very beginning when I first found out I was pregnant again, I said this was my last child. But now that I’m getting closer to my due date, reality is setting in . . .
This is my last pregnancy.
The last time I’ll ever have another beautiful little soul growing inside me.
The last time I’ll ever experience the excitement of first finding out I’m pregnant.
The last time I’ll ever hear the baby’s heartbeat from inside of me.
The last time I’ll ever get to go for an ultrasound to see how my baby is doing.
The last time I’ll ever have that big, beautiful baby belly. Believe it or not, I actually love having a baby belly. I may be one of the few to say this, but that’s just me.
The last time I’ll ever get to experience the miraculous feeling of being kicked from the inside by that perfect little human inside me.
The last time I’ll ever experience the adrenaline rush of heading to the hospital to give birth.
The last time I’ll ever experience the natural high of being in labor and finally seeing that perfect little newborn in person. That moment when you first meet your baby is by far the greatest moment I have ever experienced in my life. Nothing can possibly compare to it.
Pregnancy is a blessing. It is so beautiful, and I have been fortunate enough to be able to experience it now four times.
But how do you know when it is your last pregnancy?
As I get further along in this one, I’ve been starting to question if this really should be my last child. How do you know?
By a feeling of being complete in your family? By being exhausted and overwhelmed with the kids you already have? By not having enough rooms in your house for more? By not having a big enough vehicle for more? By not having the finances to support more? By your spouse not wanting any more?
How do you know?
For me, I guess it’s a little bit of each of these reasons. I know after this baby is born, we will have our hands quite full. I have been so very blessed with my children. They are beautiful, healthy, smart, and funny little people who keep me entertained each and every day.
I may never get to experience the joys of pregnancy again, but it’s time for me to move on to the next phase. I now get to focus entirely on the raising of my little miracles and all the enjoyment that comes with it. That sounds quite exciting as well.
Life comes with many different chapters. We may be upset when one chapter comes to an end, but we need to be grateful for all the moments we got to experience and look ahead with a smile on our face. We have so many more exciting moments to come our way. Just because one chapter has come to an end doesn’t mean our story is over, it means we must flip to the next page and begin the next chapter.