I saw your face for just a moment before the nurse carried your lifeless body away. You looked like you were sleeping, except I knew I’d never see you wake up. I left the hospital with empty arms and suddenly all I could see was the empty space in our family.

I never got to see the color of your eyes.

I never got to see your tiny fist wrapped around my finger.

I never got to see you smile.

I never got to see you drift off to sleep in my arms.

I never got to see you take your first steps.

I never got to see your daddy hold you.

I never got to see you dance in the rain.

I never got to see you play with your sister and brother.

I never got to see your grandparents spoil you.

I never got to see you blow out the candles on your birthday cake.

I never got to see joy in your eyes and gladness on your lips.

I never got to see you grow.

But one day I will.

Because one day, I’ll see you in heaven.

And the empty space will be filled. And the life that wasn’t complete on this earth will be made full at the feet of Jesus.

For a while, I couldn’t see how I’d be able to go on without you. But now I can see how God took care of me in your absence, just as he’s taking care of you in his presence.

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I never got to see you live.

But I will. Because one day I’ll see you in heaven.

This post originally appeared on A Beautifully Burdened Life by Jenny Albers

 

Jenny Albers

Jenny Albers is a midwestern girl at heart who is raising two kiddos on earth while remembering the two who are in heaven. After experiencing pregnancy loss, Jenny has found healing through writing. She is a contributor at Pregnancy After Loss Support and you can find her writing about life, loss, family and faith on her blog A Beautifully Burdened Life. In her free time, Jenny enjoys reading, sewing, and wandering the aisles of her favorite thrift stores. You can follow her on Facebook and Instagram.